/april 12, 2025/

life has felt particularly hard lately. 

as a new chapter approaches, I feel the familar urge to run away, hide, avoid, lose myself in the fantasy of a life where i no longer am asked to grow or evolve. 

but what kind of “life” is that

where one is not constantly challenged and forced to meet the moment(s)

life is a series of very special moments and i’ve spent much of my life bracing for impact from most of them, how sad 

for now i will allow myself to move through the emotions with grace and the occasional entertaiment of my favorite vices, after all no one’s perfect :) 

ultimately i’d like to come out on the other side with the ability to face my fears head on instead of waiting for them to pass
so unlike me